God is Moving

I sit at my computer with joy. My plate is full.

A few weeks ago I was learning more scripture and I came across the 8th verse of Matthew chapter 5. In the Sermon on the Mount Jesus says, "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God." After reading this my heart crumbled because I instantly thought of the opposite of this verse. I will not see God if my heart isn't pure.
This hit me like a bag of rocks to the face. As I was torn with this verse running through my head, I sat through Tony Merida's sermon about being a righteous man for Christ. This teacher usually preaches a scripture loaded sermon and this sermon was definitely full of verses pointing to the life God has called Christians to live. My heart was heavy as I questioned my recent actions and mindset. Was my heart pure? Will I not see God? As I've said my whole life, scripture and my relationship with Christ are the only things I cry about. For why should I hold in tears for my God whose love surpasses all knowledge? I just pray my tears will always point to the Lord and his compassion.

Another lesson has been on my heart lately. What are we slaves to? Or, to re-word the question, what are we following in our lives? God has called us to a strict calling for our lives, and he definitely tells gives us a clear lesson in Romans 6. If we follow sin, death will take our lives. But if we follow righteousness, holiness will take our lives.
Why stick with sin? Why chase material goods of this world which will all rust and disappear after death? What benefit did you gain from the actions, and lifestyle, you are now ashamed of? Those things lead to death. Why not chase Christ who makes all things good? Why not seek a life which leads to eternal life with Christ after death? Why not give your money to help advance the Kingdom of Christ? Why not be a rebel and never become tired of speaking about the Messiah? Our lives are nothing without Christ. Like the artist Lecrae says, "I'd rather die like Christ, than live unholy. Lord kill me if I don't preach the Gospel." Why not end the routine of talking to Christians and go share with unbelievers about Christ's impact in your life? Yes there is a time to fellowship with other believers, but please don't fill up your schedule complete with christian events/meetings/studies. Representing Christ is a lifestyle. I know you have heard this before, but people are dieing without hearing the name "Jesus." Stand up for the truth. Stand up for Christ.
I have a hard time sending my life to another country to share the name of Christ when people in my own town don't know Jesus Christ. People say we are over preached in America, but tell me why I sit next to people in church who can't find Matthew in the Bible. Or tell me why I work around atleast 3 men who claimed to be gay. They love their things of this world, but they can't clearly see Christ because they don't hear him through his scripture. I want to help others see Christ. My brothers and sisters can go over seas to share Christ, but for now I am staying here.

I praise God for the blessing of knowing him today! I praise Him for the many friends and new relationships he has allowed me to start! He has filled my plate.

God will destroy him

So I was looking through my old post on my xanga blog. I wrote this over a year ago...

"Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred, and you are that temple." 1 Corinthians 3:16-17

I am worthless. Nothing in this world can help me find a way home. I deserve nothing. My actions are like dust. My heart pumps in the stirring of tremendous encore of pain in Hell. But God....he came.

He loves me. The creator of this universe loves me for me. I fall 1,000 times, but God picks me up. The dirt inside of me has been washed clean because I can see my dirt and the desire I have for Him. None of my tears can amount to the joy I have inside of me. My God loves me. I have a relationship with Him! Are you kidding? Yet, now I pray. I pray for you who has no knowledge of my love. You walk with sin, but you can't see the road. I pray one day someone will give you glasses to see the road God wants for you. He desires you just like he desires me.

SingAlong//Phil Wickham

The Wedding

I sit and run. My direction is not straight. My thoughts are skewed. All I see is blood.

My hands are covered in the blood of this man who has been inviting me. His invitation welcomes me to a kingdom, a home, a family, a community, and even a love. Why do we run away from this invitation? He has prepared the meat at the banquet. He has poured the drinks. Everything is ready for a party, but why do I accept every other party invitation except the invitation for God's party?

Late at night I often find myself watching television on the couch. Is this what I live for? How could I ever be a man worthy of sharing the invitation of God's holy feast when I can't clearly see the invitation laid before my own eyes?

God. Please bring your fire. Please. I beg you.

Matt. 22:1-14
Jesus also told them other parables. He said,“The Kingdom of Heaven can be illustrated by the story of a king who prepared a great wedding feast for his son. When the banquet was ready, he sent his servants to notify those who were invited. But they all refused to come!
“So he sent other servants to tell them, ‘The feast has been prepared. The bulls and fattened cattle have been killed, and everything is ready. Come to the banquet!’ But the guests he had invited ignored them and went their own way, one to his farm, another to his business. Others seized his messengers and insulted them and killed them.
“The king was furious, and he sent out his army to destroy the murderers and burn their town. And he said to his servants, ‘The wedding feast is ready, and the guests I invited aren’t worthy of the honor. Now go out to the street corners and invite everyone you see.’ So the servants brought in everyone they could find, good and bad alike, and the banquet hall was filled with guests.
“But when the king came in to meet the guests, he noticed a man who wasn’t wearing the proper clothes for a wedding. ‘Friend,’ he asked, ‘how is it that you are here without wedding clothes?’ But the man had no reply. Then the king said to his aides, ‘Bind his hands and feet and throw him into the outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’
“For many are called, but few are chosen.”

The//Party

I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands one who is my Savior

I take Him at His word and deed
Christ died to save me; this I read
And in my heart I find a need
Of Him to be my savior

That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior's always there for me
My God: He was, my God; He is
My God is always gonna be

Yes, living, dying, let me bring
My strength, my solace from this spring;
That He who lives to be my King
Once died to be my Savior
-Aaron Shust

No matter where you go, no matter where you move, no matter where you turn, God will always be there for you.

I am so thankful to have the opportunity to have found Christ at the age of eight. I remember my soul aching to run faster towards the eternal life with Jesus Christ, and my thoughts were carried without giving Hell a single opportunity to distract my vision. Now today, I pray my vision is still the same. I pray I will not give the devil a chance to diminish my light/lamp. I want to be the city on the hill where the party doesn't stop. No matter which location my life resides, I know my God is there with me.

Lord, thank you for this day. Thank you for the lamp wattage you have entrusted me to shine your light and let the whole world see.